2007-07-29 - 10:18 p.m.
What an amazing day. Brian and Janine are two amazing missionaries who have been friends with my church for years and years. They are this dynamic couple who have been all over the world. So many christians are like Lord I love you but please don't call me to africa. And Brian and Janine are the opposite lol. They lived for years in africa and are now in a transitioning period in virgina beach. Everytime they come, something in my spirit resonates like I am standing in the middle of a bell. There is this amazing shaking and my whole world shifts with the power of God they speak into my life. I was looking foward to today because Brian would be preaching both services and he is just someone I "get", his humore, his concepts , I understand them. My wrist is always sore from all the notes I take when he preaches hehe. I have been in a place lately of a little bit of frustration. I know there is something big God has called for me and I felt like I had hit a brick wall and was sinking away from it slowly. I needed to be refreshed so badly. I have that hour long car ride to work and I tend to talk the things in my life over with God. Not as often as I should, but I think that will change. God proved Himself so UNBELIEVABLY faithful in the few things I talked to Him about in my car on the way to work. There were FOUR things I SPECIFICALLY prayed for, alone and never told anyone about that Brian preached on today. While there was a lot of response from others, I felt like today's service was like a special love note from God. We sang three of my all time favorite worship songs and I have two scriptures that are my favorite in the whole bible. BOTH of them were used today. One of them was the chorus Brian and Janine sang over us and taught us. My two favorite scriptures are: Zephaniah 3:17 - The hebrew for rejoice actually means to dance and sing and celebrate. The image of God up in heaven jumping aroun and singing with excitement because of me is just something that warms my heart and strengthens my spirit SO much. Plus as a singer, the thought of God singing over me... wow. As a daughter, thinking of being in the arms of my Father while he sings over me...double like woah. My other favorite is: Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. I have a plan and a purpose in life. Sometimes I forget and this scripture reminds me that God knows what He is doing :) The chorus we learned had lyrics of: (Get a load of this awesomeness!) You dance over me Lord Im amazed by You How wide One of the things I prayed for, was a better understanding of God's love. I think I missed the boat as far as love is concerned sometimes. Like that pure love, that God looks at me and for all of my mess ups he doesn't look at me and wish that I was someone else. He is thrilled to pieces with me. And I have a revelation of that now. Another thing I prayed for was about my calling. There are many things in my life that I am passionate about, many things in the creative realm I know I'm good at because God has a plan to use them. But I was in a place where I was freaking out a little. So many passions pulling me in so many different directions. What am I to do with them? At the end of this morning's service I was so moved by the message (and I'll have to type more on that later because it's amazing) it was in short about claiming your calling, and taking the "land" that God has promised you. Which is EXACTLY what I wanted to do. So I come up for prayer, and Janine comes over and I start pouring out my heart about the 4 things God answered in the morning's message. And she began to pray over me and God kept showing her all of these things about me and before I knew it tears were just running down my face. God heard me and answered my every request and gave more above it. He showed me His kind of love today. I didn't really go into detail with Janine about the thing I felt God had equipped me with for a purpose but she started listing them and said how God was showing her that each one, each thing about me that makes me unique, each talent I use for God is like a precious gemstone. Each beautiful in their own right but as they are strung together by the spirit of God, they become like this necklace that is unique to me. What an image. What an encouragement. She went into a few other things further clarifying the call on my life and there was that feeling again. Like standing in the middle of a bell, my enture being buzzed with excitement and understanding. -sighs- What a day. Thanks God. For caring about me enough to ease my mind and sending comfort and encouragement when I was worried and frustrated. You're the best.
2008-03-03-Doofy Grin
For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love, he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.
While I am unaware
You sing all around
But I never hear the sound
Lord Im amazed by You
Lord Im amazed by You
How You love me
How deep
How great
Is Your love for me
Make This A Favorite
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2007-10-02-Song Of Solomon
2007-09-27-How Deep The Father's Love For Us