2006-04-25 - 5:33 p.m.
Ok - I am posting lyrics. But not just any lyrics. A song that directly reflecting a moment I am in. I am in this place right before the sunlight is just about to truly shine.
There is some AWESOME AWESOME AWWWWWESOME God stuff going on in my life you guys.
I'm gonna try to lay it all out more for my own mind to have something to look at and organize my thoughts without trying to overthink.
Saturday night I was at my friends place. Heidi had gone out for a meeting and I was chilling with her daughter Adrienne and the babies. We were watching Paula White. I love her because she just rattles off all of these spiritual truths and just barrels forward.
One thing she said really hit me. that we are Living Epistles. Like living books or letters from God like the letters Paul wrote in the Bible. Because God is in me and inspires me, I am the Book of Christy.
This got me thinking about what my letter has to say? What will people read as I go through my life? Will I be like Jonah who runs and has mistakes then ultimately succumbs to God's will? Will I be like David? after God's own heart?
Or will I be an entirely new story? I am many things because God makes me so.
So then the whole Brian and Janine visiting thing happens and Brian mentions the "Living Epistle" thing.
And again it strikes me in my spirit.
He also talked about praying in tongues and being unable to pray amiss when we do. He notices also that there are moves of God and divine appointments more often on days he spends more time praying in tongues.
After all the God stuff that happened on Sunday - I purposed in my heart on Monday that I would pray in tongues all the way to work and all the way home for a total of 2 hours almost constant.
Immediately upon getting to work God gave me wisdom in a situation I needed to take care of.
The day went on quietly.
I don't know, maybe I was expecting lepers to come in and ask for prayer or something.
I am driving home, praying in tongues as I had purposed to. I didn't even put on the radio which is a total departure from my drives home on other days.
As I get near home, God tells me to call my friend Susan and have her pray for me because she has a word that He would give her to speak into my life.
I watched some TV and had kinda turned my mind away for a while. but at 9:15 I glanced at the clock and the devil was like 'o it's too late don't call you'll look stupid.'
But I pushed the 'send' button before I could change my mind.
And Susan was obedient to God. We closed ourselves up in our respective prayer closets and she prayed over me. God told me to 'let my words be few' and to not overtalk and analyze what she was speaking over me.
She spoke things about my voice both singing and speaking to be in a prophetic anointing. She talked about acceptability and intimidation and rejection and fear or man.
She talked about God's love and my actions being acceptable not because I'm good enough, but because His grace is so sufficient.
She talked about beauty and confidence both physical and spiritual.
Then she talked about Exhaust Manifolds...
...?
Like from cars?
Yes.
She spoke over me for about 20 mins or so and then I hung up to soak in what God had spoken to me through her.
Then I realized I had no idea what an Exhaust Manifold is.
The Lord tells me to call my friend Kevin who has been a source of God's understanding and wisdom to me a lot recently.
He also happens to be the son of a mechanic.
Hee.
I tell him I need to know what an exhaust manifold was. And he tells me and I explain to him whats going on. He tells me what comes from the top of his head. We hang up.
2 minutes pass.
My phone rings.
More information about Exhaust Manifolds and how that concept can apply spiritually.
Run down:
Definition:
Today I'm still trying to take all this stuff in.
I call my friend Heather to tell her Jason Upton is coming to my town, in May, on a day I can go...for free. (God is cool!)
I start telling her this whole thing I am saying now and she talks about how a year ago God used a Border Manifold to reveal more of Himself to her.
When you cross a border in a car, there is a Manifold that they have which contains the contents of what should be in your car.
The border patrol uses this to make sure nothing is in the car that shouldn't be.
It's read.
Like a book.
or a letter.
Or an Epistle.
Ooo.
God is weaving. God is connecting
Then I talk to Heidi and again and we talk about how awesome church was on Sunday and she reveals some of her revelations and then prophecies the things God had told her for me.
See. I know I'm called to Evangelize. There is a reason I cry every time someone gets saved.
I know I'm called to sing. I have tried to water down my anointing so I wouldn't seem prideful. But it's there and it's powerful and it's not because I'm so good - it's because GOD is so merciful and graceful.
She prophecys that God is shaping me for something larger than I thought. Something I won't think I can do.
Which is good. It's those kind of things that let you know it's God, because a human alone couldn't pull it off.
It's also coming sooner than I anticipated.
When I first got my call - I panicked because I didn't feel ready. I thought I just had to start NOW.
God told me to relax. That first of all it was future and also that I would be equipped when the time was right.
So I swung my little self to the other side thinking I'd be like Joseph and watch 17 years go by and then I would step into my calling.
Brian spoke about there being callings in our church that are starting motion NOW. That NOW is the time to step out and get on the path. NOW is the time to cast off the insecurities and walk in what God has called us to.
She talked about that being for me. That I'm called to minister on a big scale and see people come to God using my voice and the wackiness that God has made in me.
Gulp.
Even so come Lord!
So I'm pretty calm. A bit freaked. But calm. Really.
Now I need to go. This is what it stands at right now. God is doing something....big.
::exhales::
2 Corinthians 3:3 - [Forasmuch as ye are] manifestly declared to be the epistle of Christ ministered by us, written not with ink, but with the Spirit of the living God; not in tables of stone, but in fleshy tables of the heart.
Shaun Groves - Twilight
Like the sky before the dawn
(chorus)
Good I love but evil's done
(chorus)
Oh Lord, paint my heart a solid hue
(chorus)
I know the sun is coming up
2006-06-21-Chaplin facing courtmarshall for praying
The network of passages that gather the exhaust gases from the various exhaust ports and routes them toward the catalysts and mufflers of the exhaust system. A manifold with free-flowing passages of a carefully designed configuration, called a "header", can improve breathing. (Of mine? or the Spirit's?)
While the night is holding on
Sun and moon together in the gray
So my soul is shared by two
The worst of me, the best of You
Saint and sinner mingle in my veins
And I pray You'll end this twilight
Twilight, twilight
I'm torn inside my soul tonight
The dawning Day, the dying night
Oh rid my soul of twilight
Oh rid my soul of twilight
Good intentions come undone
Good to know I know the One
Who saves me from myself and
The shade of You
Oh Lord, break this dreadful in between
inside of me
Oh let it be morning
Oh, the sun is coming up
Yes, the sun is coming up
In me, in me
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